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Welcome fellow warriors. Here is where we train and stand together. This site was developed for you, and grew to be so much more. You are members of the Body of Christ. You may have been targeted by the enemy through his people and other wounded souls who continued the chain, but if you’ve accepted Christ as your Savior, you are a new creation; a new link in a new chain of forgiveness, redemption, strength and grace. You were forged in fire and are now being refined for a much greater purpose than you can imagine or think. You are going to grow to be so much more than the enemy ever feared you’d be.
I know it may seem the work never ends. Just as you face one trigger or memory, there arises another. Each is as if it just happened. Each pain feels fresh. But it’s just bandages being changed and wounds weeping. Weeping is good. It cleans the wound so it can heal. You vowed never to cry. You vowed never to trust; never to risk being hurt again. You swore no one would ever see you cry again. You’d never let them see you weak. But I’ve been where you’re at. Of all the people on this earth, those who have suffered the most at the hands of evil have already proven they’re strong just by surviving. You were conscripted as a child into a war of fists, words, programming and demonic forces. You’re wounded warriors at the end of the worst battle of your life. It’s time to let the Commander have you carried to the medic for recovery so you can step into all you fought for. There is no shame in a warrior stopping to treat their wounds. A true soldier’s strength comes from within, and so does yours.
My name is Lisa and I developed this site for you. I came out of the Order over 30 years ago. The depth of my involvement and enslavement was great. But God orchestrated even the assignments of the enemy to bring me to Himself. My order sent me to kill a minister who knew who I was and whom I served. Without fear, he took authority over those spirits who had preyed on my pain, my anger and my fears. I believed I served the supreme power, but when that old man bound every spirit at my command while on assignment for that master, I had to question what I’d been taught. How did an old man with nothing but Bible verses do that to me? That question lead to another and another and the more questions I asked, the more my handlers got nervous. The abuse increased and I found myself on an increasingly shorter leash. I lost their trust, thank God. And the whole time, this old pastor kept holding out Jesus as an option to me. He knew I came to him as an enemy, but he loved me like a daughter. He prayed for me for years before I found the courage to leave and stumbled into a service where his prayers were answered and the Lord reached down to my broken soul, and began to heal my wounds and evict the powers that had controlled my life. Salvation happened with a single prayer, but the process of the rest took time…more time than I wanted.
When I came out, there weren’t many people who knew what a Survivor of Ritual Abuse was, let alone how to help us with our unique issues. In fact, most refused to believe such abuse exists. But we know differently. We are witnesses and our testimonies cannot be silenced unless we allow it. If you’re here, it’s because you are still fighting for freedom despite the doubters and those who tell you to just “get over it”. And I have to believe that if you’re on this christian site, you believe that God’s word is true. If God is God, He cannot lie and He says we “Overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony” (Rev. 12:11). Here is where we learn to appropriate that blood & build the testimony that takes us from strength to strength & glory to glory. It can be done. I’m a living testimony of that fact.
Many people crossed my path through the years. Each contributed what I needed in my healing when I needed it. One would take me so far in my healing and another would enter my life at a stumbling block with what was needed to break through to the next level. Inner healing and deliverance is like taking an elevator up a building. You get saved and it seems like complete freedom for a time. The Lord puts you on a spiritual elevator that takes you to a place of freedom and sight you’ve never known. You enjoy it there for a time, until you start to bump into old triggers, fears and obsessive compulsions, and then, you discover another elevator…another area that has to be dealt with. So you take the steps onto the next elevator…the next steps of growth and faith and learning and you come out at an even higher level of liberty. Only God knows how many elevators you have ahead of you. But He has more than enough for whatever comes up and whatever you face. He is faithful and He will bring who and what you need when you need it. Here is where we seek to be what you need. I had no one with whom I could identify going through my “Stuff”. You have me. And I count it all joy to be able to offer whatever experience, strength and hope I can. There were many times when I was so beat down I would pray for the Lord to get me through for the sake of those who would come out of the occult and the darkness of hopeless abuse behind me. I’m glad to be on the other side now where I can reach a hand across to you in your time of need. I am not and never will be perfect, but neither is anyone else. And no one expects you to be perfect either. We just want you to be free to know the God who created you and step into all He created you to be. That’s the person the enemy was trying to break. God’s plans for you are of a hopeful future to do good works and be a testimony of His love, grace and power in the earth. You are about to become more powerful than the enemy ever thought you could be.
This is a jumping off page for you to find recommended teachings, music and books. Just about everything on this site is beneficial to ALL Christians. We live in a time when darkness is spreading rapidly and most are being deceived and lied to by the media, their officials and the whispers of the enemy. Most believers have never thought about spiritual warfare or have never had to admit that Jesus’ teachings about the devil and his minions was something to take seriously in their daily lives. Let’s face it, you might be able to teach them a thing or two. They need training too.
Here you can find referrals to ministries and counselors and soon we’ll have a chatroom for abuse survivors where you can chat and fellowship with others who are going through their healing and may be having to isolate for safety’s sake. And there are forums to discuss whatever topics you need feedback or counsel on and to share your insights into social, political and media events that you know are being used by the enemy today. You each are treasure chests of knowledge and experiences of which others are completely ignorant. Here is where we give you a platform to share, for once what you know has been brought to light, it ceases to hold power over you and can be used in the battle against the enemy. You are key to God’s plan. He saved you at the right time and has now set you there at your pc screen on this site with the opportunity to let your light shine and be a voice of truth against the father of lies and his devices. And here is where you do that together…not isolated alone and unloved. We’re glad you’re here. I’m glad you’re here. I’ve been waiting to meet you for 30 years.
Lisa Gwinn
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